02
May
08

Waiting

When I was younger I would run away from my reality by immersing myself completely in books. One book after the other, I wouldn’t stop reading until I was far far away. Now that I’m older, I realize that I ran away from my reality by coming to the US. The more I run away, the more I feel lost and now I just can’t help but ask myself; what the fuck am I running away from?


16 Responses to “Waiting”


  1. 1 Big Pearls May 2, 2008 at 8:26 pm

    When I want to run away, I go to bed!

  2. 2 Z May 2, 2008 at 10:27 pm

    Cloverfield’s imminent arrival to Kuwaiti shores. Behind aquapark.

    but really..that is a question only you can answer.

  3. 3 brokesaudi May 3, 2008 at 6:20 am

    Maybe by coming to the US, you’re running towards something?

  4. 4 um-mit3ibb May 4, 2008 at 1:10 am

    kil hatha coz i7na “private students” say inkom sluts?

    bs yuba khalas.. we take it back

  5. 5 MacaholiQ8 May 4, 2008 at 8:41 pm

    You’re running away from 3agad and that’s by far the best thing you’ve done in your life.

  6. 6 adorra May 5, 2008 at 6:46 pm

    Big Pearls: I love sleeping but I can’t do it if I’m not sleepy and I’m rarely sleepy!

    Z: Wise words master.

    Broke Saudi: That’s what I thought at first, but the more I think of it the more I feel like I’m running away!

    Um mit3ib: LOL I’m a private schooler on paper laken a public schooler at heart. Fa lil asaf ana tyeeli il masabat min il sobain :-p

    Macaholic: That IS a possibility :-p

  7. 7 Angelo May 6, 2008 at 1:47 am

    Really? I started to read books more passionately since I moved to the US.

    I suggest a quick trip to the biggest Borders in your area will snap you from your own reality and encourage you to venture into your fantasies.

  8. 8 Trevelyana May 6, 2008 at 12:54 pm

    We all go back home eventually, and in 10 years our little stay here will just be a collection of funny stories and crazy adventures.
    So ran away from, to, because.. whatever, doesn’t matter really.. you’re here now, and when you’re like 35, there wont be a “pursuing my education” excuse to ditch the homeland..

    Ya.. make the most of it, and cheers to that.

  9. 9 Dotsson May 6, 2008 at 1:00 pm

    You’re running toward me :)

  10. 10 Yawarakai May 6, 2008 at 8:22 pm

    everyone needs to run away sometimes.. u need to experience being lost.. or u’ll never truly know it when u find stability..

  11. 11 Z May 8, 2008 at 2:33 pm

    snap out of it!

  12. 12 Nymphadora May 10, 2008 at 11:37 am

    i run to hide in books too, but i think i know what i’m running away from….i guess :p

    take a moment, stop and think of what u might be running away from, maybe u’re done running away ages ago but u didn’t realize it yet…

  13. 13 Sunshine May 14, 2008 at 11:14 am

    I run to food or go for a nice long drive away from the city..

  14. 14 suspic May 16, 2008 at 3:35 pm

    And you told me to go abroad… :|

    You lied to me..

  15. 15 apathy May 19, 2008 at 6:04 pm

    I never looked at it that way, I actually just came to australia with intention of “escaping” from it all .. spend a year or so away from “it” .. you might have totally different reasons but my reasons are as valid as they were the day I was first given my boarding ticket. go to a more advanced culture, with more tolerance and ideologies, meet different people of different backgrounds and colors. sure I yearn for mama and papa … and I get the feeling sometimes that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side .. one thing is for sure: grass is a hella greener on this side. with that said, I have no redemptions per say, but i do get the feeling that maybe it wasn’t all worth it, but then again it was.

  16. 16 adorra May 21, 2008 at 9:21 pm

    Angelo: I used to read like crazy when I was back in Kuwait, I never have the time here, I get through at least 1 book a month but compared to what I used to read back in Kuwait, that’s nothing. This summer things will hopefully change though!

    Trevelyana: Sa7 ilsanech. Every time I feel homesick I think of how I will never get this chance again, I might come back here later but not for this long and maybe not by myself and not as carefree as I am now.

    Dotsson: You’re running towards me, bitch! :-p

    Nymphadora: Sometimes I think so too! Sometimes I feel that I’m just used to running away that I just do it out of habit. I can’t really think of what it is I run away from so maybe you’re right.

    Sunshine: Long drives with good music almost ALWAYS make me feel better.

    Suspic: You SHOULD come. No matter how much I complain here, I will most probably complain more if I was still in Kuwait.

    Apathy: When I first came here, those were some of the reasons that I had in mind. To get away from the stifling murderous environment that was Kuwait. I miss my parents sure but missing them is in no way related to me wanting to go home. I can visit them, they can visit me. What I worry about most is that I’ll go back to Kuwait unable to coexist there again. I am no way saying that this country is better, it might be more advanced but goshdarnit Kuwait is still where the heart is. I ran away because I couldn’t coexist properly THEN so what makes me so sure that going back after I’ve been here for 4 years will help that in any shape or form? These 4 years might be worth it, but they might not.

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